Be A Heart

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For a couple of weeks now these two words have been returning to me over and over. Everything and nothing. That is what New York offers me. It offers me the every type of food, every restaurant, every type of clothing, every store. It offers me every play and every movie, every type of person, every language, every nationality, every social class. And yet, it offers me nothing. There are so many choices that I end up not making a choice at all. It offers me so many people that I can’t manage to make deep relationships with any of them. There are so many places to buy jeans that when I go and try them on, I get overwhelmed that I leave without any. I need new summer shoes, but I’m so afraid of making the wrong decision that it will be winter again before I buy any. There are so many options on a beautiful spring afternoon that I end up doing the same thing I’ve already done 20 times–sit at the Brooklyn Bridge park and stare at the city buildings.

So what would help me make a decision? On these small matters and on bigger issues? What would allow me to draw from this everything and create a life of balance. How can I go into a store, try on jeans, and walk out with a pair? How do I get a pair of sandals and not worry about the 2,000 other pairs that I didn’t choose?

Is it about foundation? Stability? Is it about not caring what the “right” and “wrong” decisions are and see that there are many of both?

New York City–the city that offers you everything, yet nothing.